Friendship works like Operant Conditioning.
You'll be getting closer to each other when you have commons.
And inevitably, you'll be getting farther to each other when neither one of you has same personality.
Then, when time goes on and on without occurring stimulus, it leads this friendship to extinction.
Both of you will treat each person as stranger again.
This is human nature, the reality.
Why is it so hard for me to find a true friend in Canada?
I brazenly(and this is fact) say that I'm friendly and kind person, why I don't have had any friends yet?
Am I doing the wrong thing?
I don't drink alcohol and that's a good habit, isn't it?
I kinda not a clubbing person, this is a good habit, either, right?
Why?
I don't have any friends yet?
Summer break is going to end, and I haven't gotten any invitation to hang out with friends, even I've invited them lots of time, they just refuse me.
My friendship with these people are going to extinct, and it's time to cut the connection between us off, or else, it will be hurtful to each other and being a friend I don't want to hurt you.
I respect you, but you didn't return any respect to me.
You always talk to your friend in Japanese and make an excuses want me to leave you.
Whenever I talk in Chinese with someone, I will translate What I said to them to you CAUSE I RESPECT you.AND YOU'RE MY FRIEND.
Well, guess you're not going to return it.
I get it.
2012/08/28
2012/08/25
Without You.
I'm 19 years old now, it means I've been living in the world 19 years already.
Well, this road is not that plain for me to walk through.
I've been too many worst moments.
In my kindergarten, I was silent and not a talkative type of person.
Many people hated me, I guess.
In my primary school, I was fat and ugly.
And I was not a popular person, so I was being bullied by my classmates.
Well, ironically, they were girls.
And I was too weak to oppose them.
In other words, I was lonely.
In secondary junior school, I was lonely and only had a friend in Junior one, and lots of people were laughing at me, looking down on me.
So I tried to lose my weigh and change my appearance, and I succeeded.
Senior life is the best episode in my life, I had lots of friends, people loved me, but inevitably, minority of people still looked down on me.
They laughed my ability, my personality.
But I overcame them one by one.
They made me stronger, braver, tougher, more passionate.
"If there is no up and down in your life, it means you're dead."
My recent life probably is the deepest moment of my life, but it would become the peak someday.
And I'm waiting for it.
Well, this road is not that plain for me to walk through.
I've been too many worst moments.
In my kindergarten, I was silent and not a talkative type of person.
Many people hated me, I guess.
In my primary school, I was fat and ugly.
And I was not a popular person, so I was being bullied by my classmates.
Well, ironically, they were girls.
And I was too weak to oppose them.
In other words, I was lonely.
In secondary junior school, I was lonely and only had a friend in Junior one, and lots of people were laughing at me, looking down on me.
So I tried to lose my weigh and change my appearance, and I succeeded.
Senior life is the best episode in my life, I had lots of friends, people loved me, but inevitably, minority of people still looked down on me.
They laughed my ability, my personality.
But I overcame them one by one.
They made me stronger, braver, tougher, more passionate.
"If there is no up and down in your life, it means you're dead."
My recent life probably is the deepest moment of my life, but it would become the peak someday.
And I'm waiting for it.
2012/08/16
When I was young.
When I was young, I was kinda unfortunate.
Well, because I was not a good material to be someone's friend or whatever, probably because of my appearance, I looked fat and disgusting.
My face could make you barf but I'm glad you hate me, frankly.
I couldn't be standing in the land of Canada without being hated by you,
Because of you, I've started learning English so hard,
Because of you, I was loosing my weigh so hard,
Because of you, I'm brave enough to make a determination.
Because of you, well
Tons of appreciation!!
"One Day" from Charice kinda reflects my situation,
"One day, make you a believer
One day, got this all I need is
One day, don't try to tell me I can't
Right now, I'm running the future
Watch out, won't stop I'm a mover
One day, you're gonna know who I am
Oh when I'm high and free
It's not fate, wait and see, One day"
You laughed at me before but now I'm standing higher than you.
I'm braver than you, I'm more successful than you are.
Thank you, haters.
I love you.
Well, because I was not a good material to be someone's friend or whatever, probably because of my appearance, I looked fat and disgusting.
My face could make you barf but I'm glad you hate me, frankly.
I couldn't be standing in the land of Canada without being hated by you,
Because of you, I've started learning English so hard,
Because of you, I was loosing my weigh so hard,
Because of you, I'm brave enough to make a determination.
Because of you, well
Tons of appreciation!!
"One Day" from Charice kinda reflects my situation,
"One day, make you a believer
One day, got this all I need is
One day, don't try to tell me I can't
Right now, I'm running the future
Watch out, won't stop I'm a mover
One day, you're gonna know who I am
Oh when I'm high and free
It's not fate, wait and see, One day"
You laughed at me before but now I'm standing higher than you.
I'm braver than you, I'm more successful than you are.
Thank you, haters.
I love you.
2012/08/15
Time
Time has gone too fast that you couldn't expect.
Well, the first semester is gone, but the goal that I keep chasing still not yet accomplished.
I got great result in this semester, I think.
I kinda enjoy the study here, but probably I just came here like couple of months, yet, I don't have any close friends.
I hope I do, actually. I can't live without people.
This is what I am.
Sending a lot of invitation to many friends, but most of the time, I receive a plenty of refusals.
Whatever, one day, I will find one.
Things won't be that hard for the person who is strong enough.
I want to go back home sometime.
Because I'm so lonely as if I was living in a dead world.
My world here is like zombieland and I'm the only survivor.
My "friends" hurt me many times.
Don't make any excuses to requesting me to leave, I know.
You know what I'm good in, Psychology.
I know what you're thinking cognitively.
You might not be my close friend since you've hurt me, but I still treat you like my friend because I respect you.
Honesty sometimes kills you, the reality.
the true story.
Well, the first semester is gone, but the goal that I keep chasing still not yet accomplished.
I got great result in this semester, I think.
I kinda enjoy the study here, but probably I just came here like couple of months, yet, I don't have any close friends.
I hope I do, actually. I can't live without people.
This is what I am.
Sending a lot of invitation to many friends, but most of the time, I receive a plenty of refusals.
Whatever, one day, I will find one.
Things won't be that hard for the person who is strong enough.
I want to go back home sometime.
Because I'm so lonely as if I was living in a dead world.
My world here is like zombieland and I'm the only survivor.
My "friends" hurt me many times.
Don't make any excuses to requesting me to leave, I know.
You know what I'm good in, Psychology.
I know what you're thinking cognitively.
You might not be my close friend since you've hurt me, but I still treat you like my friend because I respect you.
Honesty sometimes kills you, the reality.
the true story.
2012/08/03
Why?
I couldn't figure out why the feelings keeps coming back.
The feelings,
I feel my English has been good but sometimes it has been worse instead, why?
It's so tentative!!
That's why I want to keep talking to native speaker (Canadians).
They can let myself improve my English with posthaste.
Whatever, I don't know.
But the interesting thing is, when I look back the previous post I made before, I can't distinguish where the grammatical mistakes are, and they are too obvious and made me laugh so hard.
I was wondering:"How can you even make a mistake here? you shouldn't make an error here seriously!?"
Final exam is coming, this means the first semester is going to end.
Time has passed too fast, my friends in Malaysia will be going to Taiwan to accomplish their dreams.
Wish you all the best!
Luv you guys!
Be optimistic!
Be tough!
Don't hesitate to get further information!
The feelings,
I feel my English has been good but sometimes it has been worse instead, why?
It's so tentative!!
That's why I want to keep talking to native speaker (Canadians).
They can let myself improve my English with posthaste.
Whatever, I don't know.
But the interesting thing is, when I look back the previous post I made before, I can't distinguish where the grammatical mistakes are, and they are too obvious and made me laugh so hard.
I was wondering:"How can you even make a mistake here? you shouldn't make an error here seriously!?"
Final exam is coming, this means the first semester is going to end.
Time has passed too fast, my friends in Malaysia will be going to Taiwan to accomplish their dreams.
Wish you all the best!
Luv you guys!
Be optimistic!
Be tough!
Don't hesitate to get further information!
2012/08/01
August first draft
Well, I have a sudden feeling to write a blog now for no reason.
I need to write a blog occasionally to record my life in Canada, though.
This university experiences are worth to be recorded or embed into my blogger.
It's been August already.
I've been staying in Canada for 3 months long, it is so unexpected!
I was doubting myself before came to Canada, Can I do this?
Yes, I indeed can, the skeptical emotion in Malaysia was totally useless.
You don't necessarily need to worry about anything when you are going across the ocean.
We have potentially ability to be adaptive whenever the place is,
just 3 factors:Be tough! Be optimistic! Don't be hesitated to enquire the information that you don't know yet!
If you have these three factors, you're stepping the first step of achieving the goal you're chasing!!
Don't forsake!
I need to write a blog occasionally to record my life in Canada, though.
This university experiences are worth to be recorded or embed into my blogger.
It's been August already.
I've been staying in Canada for 3 months long, it is so unexpected!
I was doubting myself before came to Canada, Can I do this?
Yes, I indeed can, the skeptical emotion in Malaysia was totally useless.
You don't necessarily need to worry about anything when you are going across the ocean.
We have potentially ability to be adaptive whenever the place is,
just 3 factors:Be tough! Be optimistic! Don't be hesitated to enquire the information that you don't know yet!
If you have these three factors, you're stepping the first step of achieving the goal you're chasing!!
Don't forsake!
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